Monday, January 28, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
In theory, this day is about empowering the people of India. It also we are solely responsible for what we have done to ourselves. If India is a poor, underdeveloped, semifeudal and corrupt state, it is because we have chosen it to be that way. It is the day on which we should ownup the responsibility for the state we are in today. We have chosen and elected the people who decide the future for us and if they are not capable or if they lack will to take us ahead, we solely are to be blamed.
The constitution of India, that idealistic document, framed by some of the wisest people in our country has remained merely a paper tiger. I wonder if we were ever fit to be `republic' and it is high time we understood the notion and the spirit of republic once again. It is high time we republicized the spirit of republic.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
I lost my uncles, the last one to go was Jadish Kaka, who died yesterday. Not that I was particularly close to them, I had three uncles once and now I have none.
Baba was operated upon for cataract this year, thanks to vigilance of Ashwini who discovered that he could not differentiate between yellow and red!!
Baba sold off the house in Valsad that he had built and where we spent most of our life in Valsad in Diwali and we are on a frantic `House Hunting' mission ever since. Lets hope we succeed this year.
It was also the year of psychotherapy and anti depressants. I have been on anti-depressant for over a year now and it seems to be working. What have I got out of the treatment? Yes I dont crack up and go to pieces over touchy things. I have a better self esteem. There is lesser negativity in my thinking. I have been able to discover that I need to face the facts and not run away from them. That relationships, health and lifestyle should be given priority over the other things that I have been doing. As my doc says I need to have a better balance in my life.
At the workplace, I was given a pc, a net connection and a name plate last year. That enables me to spend more time in my cabin and it will also enable me to work upon that novel I have been dreaming of. Lets hope I succeed in that too.
I have started dabbling in things which I had stopped playing around with: Past life, occultism and what not. Reading Brian Weiss and practicing self-hypnosis and pranayama and the god knows what. The poet's shortcomings, after all. The poet Rat nibbling at many things.
Amid the fear of losing my creative powers, I actually ended up performing well as a writer and critic this year. Boy, I am raring to go..but at what???
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Indians wax and wane eloquent when there is a discussion regarding `dharma', one of the meanings of the term is one's duty. However, in actual practice, `dharma' is not `dharma' but a form of illegal commerce.
Were we as corrupt since the earliest periods of our civilization? Look at the Mahabharata. Putting one's wife at stake, or five brothers marrying one girl, or a teacher demanding a thumb as part of his dues were not seen as illegal moral hacks. In fact, there are efforts to justify these acts.In medieval period, the rebellious religious poets were tortured and even killed for daring the uppercaste and priestly mafia of all the religions. If this is our moral report card, then even the Lord God cant save us.
Is there any hope at the end of the tunnel? Or is it, as they say, the light of the approaching train?
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
Here I am in my cabin in Baroda with a PC of my own and connected to the Net. There were times when I used to be on-line from cafe or my home.
The new year has started and this is the season of resolutions. And I have recently acquired a habit of making resolutions. So here it goes:
i) To Exercise more and do a good deal of load shedding. That means to continue my swimming lessons , bicycle more and
ii) To have more sex
iii) To write better poetry
Narendra Modi has returned to power as expected and his opponents, that is the BJP is in trouble. There never was a Congress.
Last year in January I was in Hyderabad watching the New year celebrations.
This year I have just returned from Gondal and fought over the same issue I fought over last January in Kavyotsava in Mumbai: Free Verse and Meters. What bull shit.
Hey I have lectures to deliver and so I have to disappear into the classroom.
Goodbye 2007 We will never meet again!!!!